Self-Portrait as Creek

     Despy Boutris

 

Off-trail, I make my way

to the creek, climbing

over rocks. Distant,

 

there’s the sound 

of kids laughing,

a mother telling her kids

 

to be careful. Daily,

I think about going back:

cargo pants, tie-dye shirts,

 

searching for crawdads.

Back then, my body

was only a body—not

 

a war-torn town,

constant battleground.

This creek was just a creek,

 

not something I wished

was deep enough

to drown me. & how

 

does one go back 

to when the world

was a wonder?

 

Or, if I can’t go back,

let me turn to a body

of water,

 

let me be

this rippling creek

dappled with sunlight.

Despy Boutris's writing has been published or is forthcoming in Copper Nickel, American Poetry Review, The Gettysburg Review, Colorado Review, The Journal, Prairie Schooner, and elsewhere. Currently, she teaches at the University of Houston and serves as Poetry Editor for Gulf Coast, Guest Editor for Palette Poetry and Frontier, and Editor-in-Chief of The West Review.