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Disperse Me like I'm Raining or Let Me Be Celestial

Nicholas Alti

I will lay before you

                  glimmering                        a calm lagoon

                                                                                                                        warm & whole

on a planet different than here             where heat

                                                                               isn’t a threat

I want you drenched in me          to absorb me, briefly         leave my waters

                                         & your body dripping as you go

                                         take me everywhere else

It is so difficult to pretend my body                                             sacred

                  let me deliquesce into liquid                                         or burn into oblivion

I pass the days dreaming of a star pocked plane

                            where I will evolve into an asteroid                  hurtling toward

                                                                                                                        a glimmering constellation

because, after all                        it hurts

                                     to lie still like this                                              evaporating slow

hopefully someday I will know myself

                as something                                         like a star

                                                                                      or a sun

some corporeal thing that was at least once alive               burning

                                                                                                                         & roaringly so

Nicholas Alti from rural Michigan, Nicholas is an optimistic depressive with trigeminal neuralgia, no known future career paths, and a modest criminal record. Recent poems live at Grimoire, FRiGG, Into the Void, DREGINALD, and Always Crashing. He is an assistant editor with Black Warrior Review, an MFA Candidate at UA, and grateful for your reading.

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