Disperse Me like I'm Raining or Let Me Be Celestial

I will lay before you

                  glimmering                        a calm lagoon

                                                                                                                        warm & whole

on a planet different than here             where heat

                                                                               isn’t a threat

I want you drenched in me          to absorb me, briefly         leave my waters

                                         & your body dripping as you go

                                         take me everywhere else

It is so difficult to pretend my body                                             sacred

                  let me deliquesce into liquid                                         or burn into oblivion

I pass the days dreaming of a star pocked plane

                            where I will evolve into an asteroid                  hurtling toward

                                                                                                                        a glimmering constellation

because, after all                        it hurts

                                     to lie still like this                                              evaporating slow

hopefully someday I will know myself

                as something                                         like a star

                                                                                      or a sun

some corporeal thing that was at least once alive               burning

                                                                                                                         & roaringly so